Stream of Consciousness

I apologize too much....I am so sorry that I haven't written a blog in a long time.  My eyes are really itchy and watery right now.  It might be because I am up too late again.  This might sabotage my working out tomorrow (look, I am already making lame excuses).  Britney's new blog post really did influence me and inspre me even more.  I really need to learn how to link to someone elses post...and take better quality photgraphs.  Do people really even care to read my blog?  I am filled with way too many questions about why I can't or shouldn't do things.....not sure why I doubt my ability so much. Wish I wasn't so afraid of inclement weather (it really is quite crippling somtimes).  These wedding flowers that I am working on are actually intimidating me this time around.  I need some more places to find inexpensive and high quality artificial flowers.  It's been awhile since I have been back to Goodwill....wondering why they haven't called me back about that job that I interviewed for.  It might be that I went all Puss in Boots from Shrek and batted at a piece of fluff that floated in front of me during the interview.  I really need to get out and socialize more.  I have met a few people at the gym but still am too hung up on if my bum jiggles too much in my new exercise pants when I am on the eliptical.  Really hope I am raising my son the right way (even though there is not really a wrong way) but again that stupid self-doubt creeps in!  Gah....I love my little Cam Cam more than words.  Goodnight!  I promise to blog more soon...dealing with some crazy stuff these past few weeks but have some great blogs started!  Thanks for reading....I wish I lived closer to all of my friends.....annnnnnd  DONE!